C.R.E.A.M

i think the lull is because for so long this thing has just been a vent. Catch a breath of fresh air and you lose a bit of the edge on your tongue; these margins are seams thats can't hold in the view. that's not a "you'll never understand what i've seen tip." more like a - i'm having trouble understanding what i've seen. (seriously, who ever thought the quote we all grew up thinking was clever but false "fools speak cuz they have to say something, wise men speak cuz they have something to say" would ring true. I mean we get a taste and its a punch in the face. but you gotta hold your ground, and bite your tongue, let em know you're in with the times. can't blow your cover though. that blow put you in your place, you know you don't have shit to say.

but of course i'm full circle, once again wondering what everybody else has seen, and thinking maybe people are curious about me too. glad we got this little knights of the roundtable meeting ground. so guess i'll start the horseplay and splash around in this baby pool of slippery confusion.

basically just one thought of late;

im not sure of what utilitarian philosophers are proposing - that we already live in a utilitarian society, or that a just society is a utilitarian one? well either way John Rawls give a scathing critique; any conception of justice should be founded on the two independent entities of what is right and what is good, whereby what is right leads to the most good. but utilitarianism doesn't separate them, what is good is assumed to be right and thereby are one in the same. Guess that would make sense if I could explain his null hypothesis of why what is right and what is good have to be distinguished (instead of them being synonymous), but i can't. well either way...

ive just been thinking it seems like maybe we are living in a utilitarian society already. and i dont think utilitarianism is theoretically just, nor do i think our society is just. but, is capitalism naturally utilitarian, or can capitalism be responsible? can it be altruistic? sympathetic? humble enough to recognize that although we may all be rational and free thinking...we live in a society where your height can predispose you to making millions playing ball (just the tip of the iceberg)? idk guess just throwing out that when its said "assuming all other things being equal" we are just assuming. hmmill leave it at that, maybe ill go back to edit and make sense of this later, but for now...

im baaAAaack.