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Thursday, July 19, 2007

How Flawed I Am

The 40 or Proverbs. The profanity or the Save Darfur Campaign... if only it were that easy. These days I struggle for that balance between having a good time and hypocrisy. The fear of what I have to say falling on deaf ears is paramount. Getting on my knees to pray after having a hangover that morning. Joking about sex with the boys and still putting the highest value on it at the same time. Trying to fit in and trying to be a movement. Boppin my head to the same rap artists I criticize. Wearing Jordans and bragging about the same guy who hasn't done anything notable for the black community besides a few tax write offs on a 1040. Skimming a Maxim or checking out Time Magazine. Reading about saving Africa or reading The Jordan Rules. Making myself watch CNN and checking out the NY Times when all I want to is watch the 11 oclock sportscenter... Perfection I'll never reach but that balance I must. It's tough to find that ultimate comfort with one's skin...

3 comments:

Anonymous said...

writing these blogs does not justify your "flaws."

you either do one thing or another. and you're not necessarily flawed for choosing one thing over another. Do what feels good and you have the privelege and opportunity too.

And if you don't want to- and you want to do something and make a change, then don't write a blog, just do it.

thetruthshallsetyoufree said...

I´m not looking for penitence on some blog.... I was just speaking to the struggle we all go through to find balance and comfort in our daily lives. Making change implies action...duh..but the intellectual discourse is not something to be undermined.
rob

Anonymous said...

word rob, im with you