A war with my flesh

I've been doing some thinking myself... I saw that Cornel West clip and I really have to do some dying myself. Our luxuries, our complacency, our ignorance, our belief that somehow an American baby is more valuable than that one in China, it all has to die.
I don't think your commodities are always the direct cause of the struggle but they can be a blindfold preventing us from seeing things for what they really are. It's a struggle to be balanced. Why do I watch a Hotel Rwanda and then feel sad for a bit and then go to Wendy's drink a lemonade and go on with my life? Why is my flesh so weak and sinful? I don't know. One may say it's in our nature to be selfish and not care about others. I think goodness must be strived for. Anne Frank was wrong. The difficulty of growing up in the US and truly being socially conscious and appreciating the human struggle everywhere is as tough if not tougher than growing up in the South during slavery with parents owning slaves and thinking slavery is wrong or having ur dad being an avid Nazi in the 1940s and supporting Jews, Gypsies and all that suffered. The reason Gandhi, Jesus, MLK are all considered so special is because they are anomalies of sorts. John I honestly don't know if humanity can ever come close to that kind of compassion across the board. Not to say we shouldn't reach for it, but as saddening as it sounds, I guess the torch will have to be carried by a select few once again. I mean Cornel hit the mark when he said the only time in the history of America where all Americans were scared and violated and felt like niggers was 9/11 and our response wasnt whoa lets reevaluate what our presence is in this world, but rather lets go out and kill. Saddham was evil but we love those Saudis degrading women?
I've grown up in the church and have never been religious cause i think there's a difference between religion and spirituality. Religion funded the inquisition, had a role in the holocaust, justified slavery, and has killed more than any force in our history. Religion has destroyed people and their ideas that died with them. Original ideas we will never hear about that will never exist. Me being more spiritual has helped ground and humble me. It has helped my flesh die. I think now is in the time in my life where I must learn, not to say I shouldnt be out there helping people at the same time, but Martin, Malcolm, all of them became schooled before they did the schooling. So I suggest we all pay attention, be critical at all times, be beautiful enemies to each other and never let that central air keep you so cozy that we forget we have greatness inside of us to change this world. Learn now so that when your time comes, you'll be ready. Enjoy life but don't think enjoyment should be based solely around you. I think we all have to pick what we want to contribute to. There are far too many problems to attack them all.
I'm gonna go read my bible and figure out how to be gracious, more humble and master this compassion, a mastery so rare that a select few in history have accomplished it. Shit, gotta turn up the AC.... and so the battle begins.....