A season of hope's discontent

I gave her it all. My heart, my mind, my story my rise and my fall. It seemed she fell in love with the man that I was. I hadn't been this happy since I played dad 1 on 1. Her smile made me want to be a better man. I never felt so vulnerable and so loved all in one. I prayed at night she'd see what I saw and i wanted to tell her she was my Helen of Troy.
Life threw some curveballs and before you knew it, my secret was suppressed the key thrown away. I cried and I cried but the truth wouldn't let me close my eyes. It kept eating and eating away at the soul. I had to tell her but I knew the fate... friendship ruined, you're a brother not a mate.
Somehow I found the courage under a rock and I said hope is a good thing and the world will be shocked. I said the most dangerous/beautiful three words in human history: I love you. She started laughing she didn't see it coming. I gave her time as I was exiled to la isla negra until she summoned me with her heart. Those nights sleep lost the battle and I hoped once more that the creator wouldn't rob me of the Winnie Cooper not even the Wonder Years could equal.
She called me one day my hand trembling like Ali after all those damn fights. I tried one last attempt to explain to her my heart. I listened to her voice and I thought all was right but she dismissed what we had, said we were never that close from the start. A brother I was to be forever. I couldn't reason or argue with that. For once optimism wasn't my calling card and I finally realized hope can get a man killed...